Wake up with your mind alert and instantly thinking in a different language. With dawn comes learning for the soul goal to communicate the Gospel to those who do not know it. The sun is your enemy because he keeps limits what you can get done in one day and the moon will only light your path for so long after the blanket of stars envelopes you. Corporate vision, communal hope, constant striving in this place are the perfumes that intoxicate you daily…
This place is overseas fulltime ministry and this weekend its absence assaulted me. I have been fighting emotional gangrene for the past few days and could not diagnose its source. I was frequently using phrases like, ‘I want to be impacting the world for Jesus’, ‘I feel like I have no conduit through which to channel my passion’. I am feeling a new wave of withdrawl from the purpose I possessed in Russia.
Thank you Emily M. for sharing with me that for a time we are in season and a time we are out of season. This may be a time I am out of season. This does not nullify my responsibilities as a Believer, but it certainly is a different place than I was months ago. It is difficult not to have such stark purpose or mighty team environment even though my burden now seems lighter than it was before.
"Lord, kindle a new fire in me, one that burns more gently. Mold me to be more like you while using new tools and let me always be a light for you, but be content to illuminate in the manner you see fit. Amen"
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